I'm Back

I've been in the city just one week shy of a month and so much has happened already. I have been on 5 auditions (yes I'm averaging more than one audition a week), have more day jobs than I know what to do with (including telesales, babysitting, box office, and selling off Broadway tickets on the street), and actually have a door on my room. I have twice as much energy as I did before my big Michigan summer, and I'm pretty proud of myself for getting things together so quickly. I wish I was in a play, but it's not the same sort of desperation I had in previous years. I get up, I work out, I go to an audition if there is one, I go to The Shakespeare Forum, and do work. It's a fairly happy life. I am trying to find more of a balance in my life than I had before. I've made time to see friends more than I ever did before, and am back with a Connect group. I feel as if I have more patience for myself. Even if I did drop my camera, and crush my watch (this is why we can't have nice things), and more importantly, I know I am where I'm suppose to be for now, even if there are people I miss. I miss the idea of what we could be not what we really are. In New York I am who I really am, in Michigan I've become an idea of what Jessica Cermak was, and I must say it's more fun to live in the moment