frantically streching my wings

It seems as if my world is in fast forward. There was an extreme drama over an audition video that I feel so so about. There was a clown workshop, and love, and feeling as if love is moving too fast. I attended Jew brunch on Saturday and got baptized this morning. I'm not joking, I got baptized this morning (yes fully submerged). I lost and found my cell phone and got a smart phone for $45 in the process. I also got cast in a play that might be brilliant or terrible depending on if it's meant to be absurd or not, sometimes I feel as if my life is absurd. But, through it all I'm healing, I'm mean really healing, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I had a revelation through many sources that I've judged myself too harshly in the past few months. I am growing stronger and more confident. In the last 48 hours more than ever before, I feel as if I'm coming into my own. I never even realized it but my wings have been curled up all this while, but now, I'm ready to fly.

A Corner in Bryant Park

It's nice to know that on a day when I was turned away for the second time from a NON EQUITY call, I can eat Halal food from Egyptians who teach us Arabic. When I was a little girl dreaming of being an actor I never thought about these moments, but I don't think I would survive without them. Even if it's freezing and we are sitting in the park and a crazy homeless man is smashing beer and saying that Muslim and Jews are going to hell, if it were perfect, it wouldn't be us.

New Avenues

After pounding the pavement for almost two months, I've realized that while auditioning is amazing, it can get frustrating. The Shakespeare Forum has always been my creative outlet. Whenever I was sick of rejection and fed up with waiting and not getting seen, I knew that I could go an do work on Tuesday nights. While I am still just as grateful for this gift (insert shameless plug-come to 81 White Street at 8p on Tuesdays and ask for the Shakespeare forum you'll be glad you did), the time has come to explore other ways to quench my creative thirst. I need to start making my own work and collaborate with all of those brilliant people I know who direct, write, and create. My goal should just be one or two auditions a week, but also to create something every week. It's time to suck the marrow out of this city and all the eager and talented people in it.