An Unexpected Shift

Oh my! New York you have swept me up into your hustle and bustle! I try to enjoy Autumn in New York before I realize I need to rush to that audition that I might be seen at. I still haven't got a project to sink my teeth into, but I'm as hopeful as ever!
In the midst of my crazed hunger for artistic fulfillment and furry to survive in the big apple. A man entered into my world, and heart, slowly at first, and then with a fury that seems like it won't fade. This sexy Shakespeare fantasy has lit up my nights, after I pound the pavement by day.
So while I long for more in one section of my life, in the other, my plate seems full. And, yet, I'm happy.

Wicked Blessed

For some reason I've gotten the opportunity to see a lot of theatre for free lately. I was very excited about this because 1. I love theatre forever and ever and 2. I'm super cheap. I feel as if it was a confirmation from God that I'm suppose to be here. I got the invite to the table, now I just need to create a dish. Or, to say it in another way, someone (anyone) needs to cast me!

While I was waiting for someone to appreciate my great talent (and sex appeal, I must add) I got to see some decient shows. I finally experienced The Blue Man group, and was throughly entertained, although I doubt that it was as inventive as it must've been years ago. I also got to see my favorite, Jan Maxwell at the theatre that helps pay my rent, in the very interesting Wings. But nothing quite topped Office hours at the Flea. The show was incredibly intense and stirred feelings that I last had watching Dead Poets society or in my 11th grade AP English/History class, I can't remember which. Speaking of my AP English and History classes of yesteryear: I'm sure Almacher and Akers would be proud of me. I just got a lesson plan together to teach 12th graders about the musical Wicked. I was the only one in the room without a masters degree, but I was also the only one with a power point. Yes, I was over prepared, and was encouraged the students to think for themselves. We shall see if TDF liked this approach.

I'm Back

I've been in the city just one week shy of a month and so much has happened already. I have been on 5 auditions (yes I'm averaging more than one audition a week), have more day jobs than I know what to do with (including telesales, babysitting, box office, and selling off Broadway tickets on the street), and actually have a door on my room. I have twice as much energy as I did before my big Michigan summer, and I'm pretty proud of myself for getting things together so quickly. I wish I was in a play, but it's not the same sort of desperation I had in previous years. I get up, I work out, I go to an audition if there is one, I go to The Shakespeare Forum, and do work. It's a fairly happy life. I am trying to find more of a balance in my life than I had before. I've made time to see friends more than I ever did before, and am back with a Connect group. I feel as if I have more patience for myself. Even if I did drop my camera, and crush my watch (this is why we can't have nice things), and more importantly, I know I am where I'm suppose to be for now, even if there are people I miss. I miss the idea of what we could be not what we really are. In New York I am who I really am, in Michigan I've become an idea of what Jessica Cermak was, and I must say it's more fun to live in the moment